I'm Through Being Polite Goddamnit!!

My tag line comes from the movie Titanic, but I'm not on a huge cruiseliner searching for a handcuffed Leo DiCaprio in the belly of it.  I do, however, feel like I'm on a sinking ship with no hope in sight.

Now, I normally don't "woe is me", because that shit pisses me off when I have to sit through another person's constant sob story.  You all know someone who know matter how many times you ask them how they are doing, they come back with some new drama.  I try to be compassionate, but there is only so much you can take before you just want to choke them with their own hair.  Having said that, my blog is going to be filled with that drama shit, so if you've heard one too many of my stories, please feel free to stop reading now.  You won't hurt my feelings.  Now that the disclaimer portion of my blog is finished, here goes.....

I am sick to death of being a wife and mother....yes, I said it!  As horrible as it might sound, I have had it with ungrateful and presumptuous people in my life who don't feel like they should contribute anything in return!  I am tired of people living under the roof I put over their head and all they want to do is give attitude in return when I ask them to do something.  I also do not like being questioned by people who don't have a single, fucking clue what it takes to be on your own and supporting a family.  And, I am not a bi-product of 1950s household society.  My brothers, yes....I was born in the 70s damnit!  It is not my "job" to cook you dinner, clean your house, or give you anything if I don't feel inclined to do so.  You are not ENTITLED to any of these things!  Living in my home is a privilege, not a right!!

Now, I am one of those people that doesn't like confrontation.  I literally HATE it!  This is a problem that I do recognize.  Since I turned 40, I am getting better about being constructively confrontational, but it does take a lot of hard work.  I have let things and behaviors go on for so long in my home, so when I try to do something about it now, I am met with anger, people questioning my authority, etc.  I am fed up!  Don't get my wrong, I love my family....adore my family.....would give my life to protect my family.....I'm just tired of them taking advantage of the things I do for them.  I'm tired of them not recognizing the amount of sacrifice I have made and continue to make for them. 

Whew.....feels better to vent!